Happy 41st monthsary! Drop the idea of studying so yea..

(:

Went over to rp for project discussion! & SIGHHHHHHHHHHH! Entrepreneurship! I really hate you manzxzxzxz. Sian to the max..

So ben's group is here too! & the 3 of us (Nigel, ben and me) went over to bukit timah for dinner. I had my lunch at 3pm plus. Dinner with them at 5pm plus! Lol Lunch and dinner also rice! How?

Anyway, the food here is awesome! Especially the tom yum soup. Pretty cheap too(:

Thinking about home make me feel more sian.
Everyone has their problem. The other day when we were at sheryl's house, i was feeling kind of emo after seeing their family and mine.
Yea, it's been a long time since we can travel together as a family. Now the word 'family' is broken.

Sometimes i just wish i'm not born to this world. At least i won't have to feel or go through all these. I'm such a spoiler man, seriously. Always make things worst for the others.

But one thing for sure, is that i'm blessed with a lot of stuff. It's just that i dunno how to appreciate it. I sucks at handling situations like this. Being the only child is not as good as what you guys think. It sucks..

Nice right? Haha I took this okay! Today HTM trip to sentosa was alright i guess. Fun but tiring! Wonder why i love to sun-tann so much last time and i really hate the sun now! :( Okay i'll let the pictures do the talking.

I wanna go USS!!!!!

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This is the suckiest moment in my life . I swear!
Till now , I still don't understand why you wanna do that to us . I hope whatever you say is real. I really hope so. At least if it's real, all this won't happen alr .

Things are getting harder for me now. I need more strengths . I always tell others to look on the bright side of life and that god will provide you with all the good things . I can't do it now :( it sucks . I hate it . I seriously hate it ..

I always thought that you'll change but no. It's a big blow for me and my dad . I hope you will read this . I hope one day, you'll click onto my blog and read it. I really hope so.

We did everything alr . From police report to going over to mp. In the end , none can help us. Honestly, all this are affecting my studies and me . Why do you have to do all this to hurt those who truly cares for you? I know I cannot get any answer but...

It's getting tough for me . Sometimes I really feel like giving up everything. Someone told me not to hate you because overall you're still my mom. Yea . I don't hate you but I just cannot accept the fact that you cheated on us . Even your daughter.. I'm really speechless . Sigh.

I hope I can get it through.

My cute patrick saying HIIIIIIIIIIII to you all:D

k pls be good! Bye

Honestly, i really cannot stand people who don't even trust me.
Especially the close one to you.
Anyway, i'm feeling a lot of stress back then. But during my camp, i felt so peaceful and i actually find back my true self & it kind of freak me out because for this few months, i'm trying to be someone's else.

Maybe i'm still trying to avoid things. Maybe i still cannot accept the fact that why you did this to us? So many maybe. None will understand how i'm feeling.

Actually to be strong is just a fake mask i've been wearing for all this while. Trust me, i'm not that strong as all of you thinks. So yea..

On the other hand, i dunno whether should i feel happy or sad? I just cannot accept changes.

:(

My family is broken alr.

I think my dad is going insane. Till he call reporter. Wtf?

My dad never spare a thought for me. 

NEVER!
One day i will just fall into depression. I'm serious. I screw my exams because of them. He's very irritating. Imagine you got to prepare and study for your papers and my dad has to keep ringing me over and over again talking about the same thing,

Come on. Money gone we also cannot do anything right? You want her to return back. Honestly i tell you. She won't and i really don;t have this kind of mom. 

I feel like running away but i don't want to disappoint or upset anyone. I really need directions now. I'm feeling so lost. If anything gonna happens, i don't think you will even care to visit me or us. You failed to be my mom. 

I need to move on now!

Screw UT1. I'm gonna do quite badly :( ok . Anyway, it's not the end of the world yet.. So i shall study hard for my upcoming ones and not letting my family problems affect me. Yea, Something i've to remind myself over and over again(:

So today is sunday and i'm reading my 6p for my entrepreneur! Heh. I never like this module:( 

STUDY HARD PPL! HOLS COMING SOON!

So what you want me to say?
Anyway, i really feel very sad for this entire month! It's my exam period now and guess i just screwed them badly. This's so not me... I've changed. From bad to worst. I don't even know  how to take good care of myself anymore.  You tell me how should i feel? Honestly, You failed to be one. If anything happens to my dad, that's it. I won't forgive. I don't fucking give a shit out of you.

You won't think for us anyway. I'm still trying to focus on my studies. Do you know how i feel? Have you even spare a thought for me not? If you still have the heart, pls go ask yourself. Whatever you do, It's not only hurting me but to everyone who cares about you. Oh wait, i realize you don't have a heart. Or maybe wicked heart. Yea. As wicked as a witch. I'm sorry.. But this so so true.

I once told my friend. Even if anything happens to you. I won't cry like it's the end of the world. It will be like a stranger passing away to me. Yea this shows how you failed to be my mom.

Thank you..

Love hurts. Boys lie. Friends cry. People die. Parents yell. You always try. You're never good enough,& you don't know why.

I'm glad that we're alright now. I'm sorry for all this while too. I love you(:

MEGAN FOX!!!! MY HOT WALLPAPER!(:

For this few days, i've been thinking about us and family.
& i realized i'm not the only one being hurt but you as well. I'm sorry for acting selfishly to you. I feel sad and disappointed in myself. I'm expecting too much from you alr..

What i need now is peace. A peace in my heart. You cannot say it's not affecting me because she's still my mom.  I just don't like whatever that is happening now. Is it a sign to ask me and treasure others more? I guess so..
Thanks for standing there for me. I dunno to hate or love my life now..

I love you

what you want

WHAT YOU WANT?

Ask yourself! What you really want?
Honestly. I'm like immune to everything now. Whatever you say, seems like I don't want to care anymore ..

I miss you

How long more will you be back?
Honestly, i miss you. I really do. I know you will repent. I know after all this wrong doings of yours, you will change. I know. Everything will be anew when you come back but i've got to wait for like 3 years.

I'm still trying to forgive you. It's the hardest part.. I need time. Maybe after i forgive you, i'll feel better and everything will be back to normal again.

I've always question god. Why me. Why of all people me? But i don't blame him for whatever it happens and i know by questioning i won't get the answer either.

I'm still trying to accept the fact that you're gone. To a better place where no one can find you. It might be tough for you now and i can feel the hurt and pain you're going through. Pardon me people. It's not easy . I've become more anti-social and gets very irritated easily. Pardon me, Like i said, i need time & i thank god for those who's there for me. Especially Ashley chong.

Goodbye

It's getting big!
Another big debt to hold. I really dunno what i can do. I dunno what to do. The only person i talk to is Ashley. I'm not like myself anymore . Nowadays i'm less sociable , outgoing and friendly.. Pardon me people.
I hope time will heal everything & that everything will be back to its place.

PEANUT BUTTER WITH JAM IS AWESOMELY AWESOME! My new favourite now ! I can eat for like 10 slices!! Haha okay i never try that before but i guess i can eat that much!

So UT is coming! Others are having their hols like end of nov and mine will start on the 2nd week of dec! :( How sad? Good thing is that my last UT will end on the 1st of dec(: 

Okay! Tmr is the day.. We shall see..

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I don't like changes. I really don't like it. In fact, everyone hates it. It's affecting me and us. You changed. I prefer the old you..
BOTH OF YOU CHANGED! I might leave all of you one day if i cannot take it anymore BUT i know i don't bear to leave all of you. This is so screwed.

I promise you i'll leave if i cannot tale it anymore. Goodbye....

Darren ng wei jie news is getting big,

Darren Ng Wei Jie died from his injuries after being attacked with choppers at Downtown East.

Three of the four men arrested for the death of 19-year-old Darren Ng Wei Jie in Downtown East last weekend have been charged in court for murder.

The four suspects — who are students and full-time national servicemen — were hiding in a chalet at the SAF Yacht Club in Tanah Merah Coast Road when the police came to arrest them.

The fight last Saturday reportedly started when Darren and his friends got into a staring incident with another group of about 10 teenagers at the Pasir Ris resort and amusement complex.

The incident then turned into a violent brawl and Darren is believed to have been slashed several times on his back, limbs and abdomen by his attackers, who were armed with choppers.

The second-year industrial and operations management student from Republic Polytechnic later died from his multiple stab wounds at Changi General Hospital.

According to Today, Darren’s father, Mr Francis Ng, said at his son’s memorial service last night, “My son died because of his love for his friends.”

Darren’s childhood friend, girlfriend, elder sister and parents took turns to give their eulogies of a “cheerful” young man with “a heart of gold” to a crowd of 400 friends and relatives.

Sources from yahoo.

So i'm still wondering about all this ah bengs. I've heard tons of stories about them and the most epic one was someone chopped the wrong person. By killing someone is it really that "BIG THING" to them? I mean you're taking away someone's else life. You want people to idol you is it?

They're always that steady and call each other brother brother  but when police show up, where're they? Hiding one corner and trying to leave this place? 

Death sentence for them? It's not a joke that someone can just whip a knife and start hacking you. RIP

For now, i'll leave everything to god. For he will decide what's best for me/us.
No point crying it over and over again.
You always twist your words and you say i don't trust you. How you want me to trust you if you keep twisting your words? Sometimes i don;t understand what you want you know. Really!
You chose not to answer to most of my questions. I always want to treat you good cause you're the one who brought me out to this world.
Noone understands how i feel anyway. I don't blame my dad for keep calling me cause right now, i'm his only support. His only kin. Okay, not only kin but i'm the only one he felt comfortable to talk to.
Whatever it is, i hope for the best.

Yea. Imagine eating sakae with 5 ulcers. 

Yea. It's AWESOME(:

Stop rubbing salt into my wound!

Many people say she looks like my sister! Yea, how i wish i have a sister! Okay maybe not..

My new love nowwwwwww(:

He's damn freaking cuteeeeeeeeee! Go watch my baby and me

Ok. If you want to be like that suits you!
Everytime call back talk like 10s then you say you not free then what's the point of calling back?
When i want to talk to you nicely, you talk back like shit.
Everytime you call back, this's what you would ask. Where're you & after telling you where am i then you say ok i gtg don't talk to daddy too much. WTF? Everytime like that .

I hope you can change. I hope you'll care for me/us more. That's what i'm asking for. It's not that difficult right? Is asking you to spend some time and talk to your family that difficult? If it is, i tell you, you fail to be my mom. Seriously, i don't want to give up but you always gave me this kind of feeling to give up. Honestly, since young, i've not much memories with you but only daddy. He contributed more then what a dad has to give . I recieve nothing from you. I know this might sounds abit hurtful. I cried while typing this out.. but.. seriously. think about it. Put yourself in my shoes pls. I tried putting myself in your shoes too but i guess i can figure out the reason. Is either this or that. Whatever it is, pls do your part.

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Was watching this awesome wedding video(:

Yea, it's way too awesome. Btw, This groom is rich so yea. With money everything is possible to make it grand. Lucky girl and she's pretty (: Make me feels like holding my wedding ceremony there 7 years down the road! HAHA

Pictures tells it all, i hope.

Good night!

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If it's not yours, don't force it cause it's not meant to be yours. Leave it and find a better ones. They're on your way.

Actually it's really easy to say than act. Sometimes, you just got to keep trying. Keep trying till you found the right one. 

It's not easy to get through here. Yea we broke up twice, i still question myself though. What happened if i let go for the 1st time? Will we still be friends? Will you even bother texting me and tell me your where about? Or maybe the first time, it won't hurt that much cause our love may not be that bond yet as compared to now.

What about the 2nd time? It happened recently after our 3rd year anniversary. You said you made up your mind. You said there's a 3rd party. You brought up 2 terrible incidents again. I ever asked you, why are you always so forgiving? I did so many things behind your back and you chose to forgive? You always gave me the same ans over and over again. Cause you're worth it.  

What happened if i let go this rs back then? I dunno but i'm glad i saved it. 

Maybe you will just forget about us and move on & that's what almost all guys did after their break-ups. Sometimes i just feel that i'm way behind you . It's like i cannot catch up to you.  

Sorry for being emo at this hour but that's something that still haunts me. 

I'm on MC today! Heh, people ask me, why are you always on MC!? I don't want MC but i've no choice . School reopens for like 2 weeks alr . Fast? I'm still trying to adapt the new environment & hoping for this 3 years to pass by quick so that i don't have to think too much as compared to now:(

Everyone has their problem. I have mine too but i must be strong to keep it going. I like the way you hug me whenever i'm tired over my family problems. I tried to help this family but it's not working. I wanted to give up but no, they're still my parents afterall. I hope things will get better and better and not from bad to worst.

Thank you people for all the wonderful and beautiful wishes! I've awesome cousins singing happy birthday songs to me at 12am! I've awesome friends who celebrated my birthday with me. I've awesomely awesome bf(ASHLEY CHONG) for me to spend it with! I'm a happy girl<3

Okay! I'm officially 20! HEHE I'm happy that i've grown up! At least better than ashley chong(:

Oh wait! I dig out some photos.

Wahhh i think i quite cute leh! HAHA

Dong dong dong! 123, we are kushimbo. Suntec city level 3
I'll let the pictures do the talking(:

Yea, AWESOME DINNER WITH ALL OF YOU(: THANK YOU<3