Screw UT1. I'm gonna do quite badly :( ok . Anyway, it's not the end of the world yet.. So i shall study hard for my upcoming ones and not letting my family problems affect me. Yea, Something i've to remind myself over and over again(:

So today is sunday and i'm reading my 6p for my entrepreneur! Heh. I never like this module:( 

STUDY HARD PPL! HOLS COMING SOON!

So what you want me to say?
Anyway, i really feel very sad for this entire month! It's my exam period now and guess i just screwed them badly. This's so not me... I've changed. From bad to worst. I don't even know  how to take good care of myself anymore.  You tell me how should i feel? Honestly, You failed to be one. If anything happens to my dad, that's it. I won't forgive. I don't fucking give a shit out of you.

You won't think for us anyway. I'm still trying to focus on my studies. Do you know how i feel? Have you even spare a thought for me not? If you still have the heart, pls go ask yourself. Whatever you do, It's not only hurting me but to everyone who cares about you. Oh wait, i realize you don't have a heart. Or maybe wicked heart. Yea. As wicked as a witch. I'm sorry.. But this so so true.

I once told my friend. Even if anything happens to you. I won't cry like it's the end of the world. It will be like a stranger passing away to me. Yea this shows how you failed to be my mom.

Thank you..

Love hurts. Boys lie. Friends cry. People die. Parents yell. You always try. You're never good enough,& you don't know why.

I'm glad that we're alright now. I'm sorry for all this while too. I love you(:

MEGAN FOX!!!! MY HOT WALLPAPER!(:

For this few days, i've been thinking about us and family.
& i realized i'm not the only one being hurt but you as well. I'm sorry for acting selfishly to you. I feel sad and disappointed in myself. I'm expecting too much from you alr..

What i need now is peace. A peace in my heart. You cannot say it's not affecting me because she's still my mom.  I just don't like whatever that is happening now. Is it a sign to ask me and treasure others more? I guess so..
Thanks for standing there for me. I dunno to hate or love my life now..

I love you

what you want

WHAT YOU WANT?

Ask yourself! What you really want?
Honestly. I'm like immune to everything now. Whatever you say, seems like I don't want to care anymore ..

I miss you

How long more will you be back?
Honestly, i miss you. I really do. I know you will repent. I know after all this wrong doings of yours, you will change. I know. Everything will be anew when you come back but i've got to wait for like 3 years.

I'm still trying to forgive you. It's the hardest part.. I need time. Maybe after i forgive you, i'll feel better and everything will be back to normal again.

I've always question god. Why me. Why of all people me? But i don't blame him for whatever it happens and i know by questioning i won't get the answer either.

I'm still trying to accept the fact that you're gone. To a better place where no one can find you. It might be tough for you now and i can feel the hurt and pain you're going through. Pardon me people. It's not easy . I've become more anti-social and gets very irritated easily. Pardon me, Like i said, i need time & i thank god for those who's there for me. Especially Ashley chong.

Goodbye

It's getting big!
Another big debt to hold. I really dunno what i can do. I dunno what to do. The only person i talk to is Ashley. I'm not like myself anymore . Nowadays i'm less sociable , outgoing and friendly.. Pardon me people.
I hope time will heal everything & that everything will be back to its place.

PEANUT BUTTER WITH JAM IS AWESOMELY AWESOME! My new favourite now ! I can eat for like 10 slices!! Haha okay i never try that before but i guess i can eat that much!

So UT is coming! Others are having their hols like end of nov and mine will start on the 2nd week of dec! :( How sad? Good thing is that my last UT will end on the 1st of dec(: 

Okay! Tmr is the day.. We shall see..

:(

I don't like changes. I really don't like it. In fact, everyone hates it. It's affecting me and us. You changed. I prefer the old you..
BOTH OF YOU CHANGED! I might leave all of you one day if i cannot take it anymore BUT i know i don't bear to leave all of you. This is so screwed.

I promise you i'll leave if i cannot tale it anymore. Goodbye....

Darren ng wei jie news is getting big,

Darren Ng Wei Jie died from his injuries after being attacked with choppers at Downtown East.

Three of the four men arrested for the death of 19-year-old Darren Ng Wei Jie in Downtown East last weekend have been charged in court for murder.

The four suspects — who are students and full-time national servicemen — were hiding in a chalet at the SAF Yacht Club in Tanah Merah Coast Road when the police came to arrest them.

The fight last Saturday reportedly started when Darren and his friends got into a staring incident with another group of about 10 teenagers at the Pasir Ris resort and amusement complex.

The incident then turned into a violent brawl and Darren is believed to have been slashed several times on his back, limbs and abdomen by his attackers, who were armed with choppers.

The second-year industrial and operations management student from Republic Polytechnic later died from his multiple stab wounds at Changi General Hospital.

According to Today, Darren’s father, Mr Francis Ng, said at his son’s memorial service last night, “My son died because of his love for his friends.”

Darren’s childhood friend, girlfriend, elder sister and parents took turns to give their eulogies of a “cheerful” young man with “a heart of gold” to a crowd of 400 friends and relatives.

Sources from yahoo.

So i'm still wondering about all this ah bengs. I've heard tons of stories about them and the most epic one was someone chopped the wrong person. By killing someone is it really that "BIG THING" to them? I mean you're taking away someone's else life. You want people to idol you is it?

They're always that steady and call each other brother brother  but when police show up, where're they? Hiding one corner and trying to leave this place? 

Death sentence for them? It's not a joke that someone can just whip a knife and start hacking you. RIP

For now, i'll leave everything to god. For he will decide what's best for me/us.
No point crying it over and over again.
You always twist your words and you say i don't trust you. How you want me to trust you if you keep twisting your words? Sometimes i don;t understand what you want you know. Really!
You chose not to answer to most of my questions. I always want to treat you good cause you're the one who brought me out to this world.
Noone understands how i feel anyway. I don't blame my dad for keep calling me cause right now, i'm his only support. His only kin. Okay, not only kin but i'm the only one he felt comfortable to talk to.
Whatever it is, i hope for the best.