I'm feeling very sad now.

& i really need to

:( 

Sighhhhhh. Why is life so hard? I rather not to be born to this world. I don't want to see the world. I don't want all the sufferings. I don't want to feel the sadness. 

Tell me, who will ever understand how i'm feeling? I really dunno what to do .

I hate flashbacks seriously. Memories of past traumas. It sucks.. 

& i've to constantly remind myself that it's a flashbacks, it's just the memories of the past. 

I still cannot forgive myself till now. It sucks...