I wish to disappear from this world.

I'm feeling very sad now.

& i really need to

:( 

Sighhhhhh. Why is life so hard? I rather not to be born to this world. I don't want to see the world. I don't want all the sufferings. I don't want to feel the sadness. 

Tell me, who will ever understand how i'm feeling? I really dunno what to do .

I hate flashbacks seriously. Memories of past traumas. It sucks.. 

& i've to constantly remind myself that it's a flashbacks, it's just the memories of the past. 

I still cannot forgive myself till now. It sucks...

My favourite now! Cheryl coleeeeeeee~ She's hot stuff man.

Her songs are superb and i guess i'm going crazy over her ! LOL

What should i do now?
I'm feeling so lost.

It's time to update! Badmiton sesson with the rest on sunday and HAPPY BIRTHDAY JOHNSON LOW LOW LOW LOW!

 & alicia bought this chocolate thingy from taiwan!! It looks cute (: Hahaha Yvonne with her boobies.

This chocolate is awesomexzxz! 

Okay glad we are alright now. Glad i don't have to lose a friend(: If you happened to read this, just wanna tell you that there's much more better girl out there waiting for you. Jiayou. I know the pain you're going through because i once felt that too! It's pointless and meangingless i know.. So what's the point right? We can stilll be good friends. You'll have my support(: 

Went over to NEX! This's the 2nd time i've been there. 

The steak here is awesome! BUT not as awesome as HK Gary restaurant. Haha.

I'll update more next time. CIAO!

HOKAYYY I'M BACKKKKK.

 HEHEH Honestly, i miss wearing my sec school uniform very much! It looks a bit kiddish with the napkin BUT I THINK IT'S NICE!! Lol

I want to be a band or drum major when i was in sec 3 but my post was some welfare shit:( Ok la not that shitty but everytime in charge of the CCA room and all. Yea. I've learnt a lot of stuff back then. It was meaningful and memorable. Those were the days:(

:(

So yea. I dont know what I want too. This sucks .. Seeing other people and me . A big sighhhhh!

I felt so unwanted sometimes. Whenever i need someone to talk to.. It seems like there's something blocking the way. Everytime you know .

Honestly, I really don't like my life ever since my dad sold away his house . Money is gone ...... My mom left.. Everything is not in place anymore .

After UT3 and i'll be free & GUESS WHAT! It'll be our 2nd year!! YEAYYYYYYY.

 I can't wait for internship to start because i rather work than study! Must be grateful(:

(:

GREAT!
First day of school FA and 2nd day of school Understanding test2(UT). Last UT will be on 25th jan! Then CNY. So after CNY comes 14feb V.day comes my UT3!

-.- Shit school seriously.

 Okay i shall start my post. Anyway, 2010 wasn't a good year for me.
It's my last year of ITE and everyone was praying so hard to get into poly & I got it! Most of our class people got into the same poly ! Heh:D But i still miss ITE life thou. It's like one of the best memories i've there.

People always say ITE it's always the end. I use to have that kind of mentality too! It's not the end and it'e never the end. You won;t get to learn all this kind of hands-on stuff even in poly.

okay moving on. I miss you girls seriously. Yea we've been drifted but you girls still remember my birthday and wishing me on those speacial occasions. This shows that you girls still remember me! Haha . The last time that we met up was like mid june? I cannot remember! 

I miss our cliques. With Ah xiang, derrick, jordan, joseph, eric, christopeher,dennison, roger ,ziliang, boonliong and all. Suprisingly, i'm still close with them. I just miss everyone gathering together and out for lan, pool supper etc. Not forgetting cheryl, pohee and pauline! 

This was taken on pauline's 19th birthday(: Always remind me of her 18th birthday held at costa sands! All of us were dead drunk. Birthday girl kneel outside the toilet and pray. Epic scene. Heh(: 

This's our usual clique. Yea. Big enough. The ret of them like cannot clique with the guys anymore. I'm sad:(

So this year, jordan, joseph and christopher enlisted ! Haha!

Boy becoming a man! Still becoming i guess. But i've seen them grown and it's a good thing. 

Joseph

christopher

At least 10 years of friendship and still counting. We are still very good friends thou. Heh. Everytime also go to jordan's house for mj and steamboat! I love it when everyone get to gather over at his place. 

& so after everything. I've the other cliques. I love this photo because everybody is inside this pic!!!!

I've got to thank them for being such an awesome friends too! I'm blessed with many good things and stuff!

Yea and this boy too. This is the 4th year we spend our new year's together. 

So after i get into poly. I'm still close with these 3 buddies. Erik(Handsum), Ong jun jie(Ong gien pen) and Alan tan (you like don;t have any nick leh)

I got to thank them for being there for me. I still remember out UT3 , we like always meet up and study! Alan tan was suppose to be in NYP! Thanks alan! You always come woodlands and meet us without complaining huh! Haha girls he's single(:

Ok. Honestly, I wish 2011 never comes man but oh wells. 2010 is the suckiest year for me. I hope 2011 will be a better one for me and everyone.

Bye!

Fml

Ok happy 2011 people!

Year 2010 wasnt a good year for me. Things just happened and it sucks ..

I suck too. You'll know it if you know me well. Was celebrating it at sheryl's place and sigh.. It's never a good feeling. Initially I thought I still can get over it but the fact is that I'm not and I'm still stuck at where I am.

Anyway, side track a bit . I don't think I'm a good girl for someone like you. I mean I just think that you don't deserve how it's suppose to be treated . People always say you should treasure everything that's infront of you. Well, I don't . I really don't . Jut take my moms case as an example. Having her a not it's like no difference .

I really dunno what will I do if I see her on the streets one day. Fuck it . The person who changed is me and not you.

Fml.