tell me how should i feel now.
maybe you're right pauline. whatever you said it's true. cos that's me . & sometimes i just don't understand myself . i reallydon't. i dunno what am i thinking. i just feel so sucks right now.

i've been thinking alot. really. &i always have this mindset. and it's really killing me i swear! i'm stubborn at times. i just can't stop myself from thinking back. it sucks and i feel so fuck. minor things can become a part of me.
i wonder how things will be like in the future?
sometimes, i just dunno how to open my fucking mouth and tell you how i feel. it's the same old thing that keep bothering me over and over again.

i should have private this post. but i dunno how or maybe blogger cant even private any post.
i hope i'm not a lousy girlfriend afterall.